The beginning of my 28th year:

Well, it's not really beginning like I'd hoped. For those of you who don't know, I've split up with Mike, and find myself back at the beginning again. And it presents a whole new bunch of questions and thoughts that I don't know the answers to.

1. Is it smart to break up with someone you love? Even if you know that love is NOT enough?

2. How do you keep the panic at bay?

3. What about the future plans? Like the Memorial Day trip we planned a month ago?

4. Does he feel as bad as I do? Do I want him to?

5. How do I say goodbye to his family? They are good people, and I liked them.

6. How do I ensure that our friends don't stop being his friends? That they don't stop being my friends?

7. Where do I go from here?

All of these things have been running through my head, and I can't seem to make sense of any of it.

But there are a few things I am INCREDIBLY grateful for:

1. 2 good friends who let me crash on their VERY comfy sofa that night.

2. Amazing bosses who let me take Friday off and told the big boss I was just 'under the weather.'

3. Coworkers who sent me flowers AND offered dogs to play with and heal with.

4. Friends who are helping me move next week.

5. Parents who let me wake them up at 2am on Thursday and talked me down from a sheer panic.

6. Living in sin - at least there is no marriage to undo.

Basically, it just plain sucks. My heart hurts, my head hurts, and I keep friggin running out of wine...